I had a doctor appointment today, with my primary doc who I haven’t seen in 2 years. I was there for a migraine. She looked me over, sat down and said, “Well, you have a nasty migraine, we need to break it. Other than this though, how have you been? I haven’t seen you.” And [...]
So, this blog is like a public diary. I know that’s an oxymoron if there every has been one, but that’s just what it is. Sometimes it’s easier for me to write about what I’m feeling than to talk about it. Eventually I’ll talk about it, and sometimes I’ll talk about it first. But if [...]
I will remember everything. I will be functional. I will be happy. I will be present. I will be thrilled to see my children opening gifts, not wondering when I can go back to bed. I will be remember what gifts I received and from who. I will appreciate the little things and the big [...]
On Monday I will board a train and head for NYC. Two hours later I’ll be in Penn Station. And with a very, very great friend of mine, Karen. Six hours later we’ll be at the closing concert of Josh Groban’s Illumination tour. Did you miss the important detail there? Karen is the important part. [...]
Someone said to me the other day, “Oh, you suffer from depression.” And for the first time I thought, “NO, no I do not suffer from depression.” I used to suffer.
I’m awake, fully and completely awake. I know it to be true. And I know that I’m not going to slip back into that hole at any moment. Finally. Freedom. Relaxation. Room to take a deep, deep breath. Smile unguarded. Laugh with complete ease. Live. Just live. I know that for over two years I [...]
Two years ago a dear friend of mine called me. She said she was driving through the town where we taught in Michigan. When I asked why she was in Michigan she told me her brother had commited suicide. I told her I was sorry. But I had to go. I had a thing to get [...]
I’ve spent the last week doing a lot of thinking about this little blog of mine. I started it with a specific purpose in mind: to tell others that they are not alone in the battle against depression and to prove that by sharing my story. Graphically. I’ve read so many stories about depression that [...]keep looking »